June 22, 2014

Adoption

I try to bring this word up often to our kids for many reasons...for learning, understanding, making it a familiar word and to see what they think and how they feel about it. I don't think it's any secret that Jeremy and I have thought and prayed about adopting for the last eleven years or so on and off. But once we finally got pregnant with Savannah we decided to put that dream on hold.  After thinking Breckin would be our last baby that we had due to hard pregnancies and a hard time getting pregnant we were blessed with one more little sassy girl our little love, Ella. Now that Ella is almost two and a half years old the thought of adoption is in our hearts again. I never stopped reading up on the topic or watching videos and adoption stories. But I just knew it wasn't the right time. Who knows maybe it will never happen but we would love to grow our family and we know our father in heaven knows what is best for our family.
Last week I caught savannah watching a movie I had purchased on my iPad years ago about a story of adoption and she was so into it. I was worried that it might share too much information that a seven year old might shouldn't hear but after she begged me I told her yes and figured she wouldn't be interested in it but no, she watched it twice. A few days later driving in the car alone with the kids I asked them what they thought adoption was and Savannah answered "it's when you have a kid come into your family that doesn't have one. Like an orphan and you love it." I thought her answer was pretty accurate. I explained more in detail about it but I won't get into that. Anyways Breckin said he wanted a brother and Savannah said "Mom, can we just make sure she is older than me?" I asked her why and she said "so I don't have to do everything." I seriously laughed out loud. She said this because when she complains about doing what I ask or her chores I tell her I need her help more than her little brother and sister because she is the oldest and she needs to help me out. I just thought it was funny that is what she was thinking of. 
I always tried to not be sadden in not being able to get pregnant, instead I knew that adoption was an amazing experience also and that we could be blessed in that way. Three children later we have definitely been blessed and we look forward to what is instore for our little family. God bless everyone that is wanting to start a family and for those women out there who might feel lost in the direction of life they should go and how they should care for their baby. I just have one thing to say, PRAY. Whether you are the pregnant and praying for direction or you are a woman longing for motherhood, pray. Pray to feel peace in Gods plan for you, pray to feel His arms around you, pray to be comforted, pray to be patient, whatever you may be struggling with you can always pray to your Heavenly Father for strength and guidance.