Adoption

I try to bring this word up often to our kids for many reasons...for learning, understanding, making it a familiar word and to see what they think and how they feel about it. I don't think it's any secret that Jeremy and I have thought and prayed about adopting for the last eleven years or so on and off. But once we finally got pregnant with Savannah we decided to put that dream on hold.  After thinking Breckin would be our last baby that we had due to hard pregnancies and a hard time getting pregnant we were blessed with one more little sassy girl our little love, Ella. Now that Ella is almost two and a half years old the thought of adoption is in our hearts again. I never stopped reading up on the topic or watching videos and adoption stories. But I just knew it wasn't the right time. Who knows maybe it will never happen but we would love to grow our family and we know our father in heaven knows what is best for our family.

Last week I caught savannah watching a movie I had purchased on my iPad years ago about a story of adoption and she was so into it. I was worried that it might share too much information that a seven year old might shouldn't hear but after she begged me I told her yes and figured she wouldn't be interested in it but no, she watched it twice. A few days later driving in the car alone with the kids I asked them what they thought adoption was and Savannah answered "it's when you have a kid come into your family that doesn't have one. Like an orphan and you love it." I thought her answer was pretty accurate. I explained more in detail about it but I won't get into that. Anyways Breckin said he wanted a brother and Savannah said "Mom, can we just make sure she is older than me?" I asked her why and she said "so I don't have to do everything." I seriously laughed out loud. She said this because when she complains about doing what I ask or her chores I tell her I need her help more than her little brother and sister because she is the oldest and she needs to help me out. I just thought it was funny that is what she was thinking of. 

I always tried to not be sadden in not being able to get pregnant, instead I knew that adoption was an amazing experience also and that we could be blessed in that way. Three children later we have definitely been blessed and we look forward to what is instore for our little family. God bless everyone that is wanting to start a family and for those women out there who might feel lost in the direction of life they should go and how they should care for their baby. I just have one thing to say, PRAY. Whether you are the pregnant and praying for direction or you are a woman longing for motherhood, pray. Pray to feel peace in Gods plan for you, pray to feel His arms around you, pray to be comforted, pray to be patient, whatever you may be struggling with you can always pray to your Heavenly Father for strength and guidance. 

Breckin

As I'm laying here in bed with you in my arms, listening to you breath deeply and you are cuddled into me; I can't help but think about the day you decide you are too old to cuddle with me and it makes me sad. You were such a stubborn little boy but this last year you have become so loving. Every day you tell me I'm pretty, please don't stop doing that. You have no idea how happy and beautiful it makes me feel. Please remember  to do this for your future wife, she will need to hear this everyday.

I love your dimples when you smile and that smile is the cutest one around! I love that you want to be just like daddy. He is a good man to want to be like. I love your passion to fight, you love a good pile up. I love when people call you Breckin and you say "no, my name is Breckin J Hansen!!!" I love your passion for cars and the color blue. I love when we pass a sports car and you call it a hot wheel and then tell me that one day you are going to have a hot wheel. I love when you get out of bed and tell me that you just need to give me a kiss and a hug... You love to stall when it comes to bed time. But I won't lie it makes me happy when you say that. I love when you talk in your sleep... You just said "dad, I want blue". I wonder what you are dreaming of. 

I am so glad heavenly father sent me you! I didn't realize the love between a mom and son but I cherish it and hope that you will always be my little boy with dimples! I love you so much! Breckin, you are so handsome:)

Building our forever home 🏡

So needless to say we have been pretty busy the past six months with life and building a new home. We are about a week away from moving in and we couldn't be more excited. It doesn't seem real. I'm in awe. We have been so blessed and we hope with the new home we can make lots of new memories with our family and friends. We couldn't have made it to this point in or life without any of you, thank you.

Dozer

So one of our many names for Breckin is dozer as in bull dozer because he uses his head to doze anything or anyONE around. Tonight at bed time we were reading one of his favorite books, "Good Night, Good Night, Construction Sight" (very cute book by the way). We get to the page where it talks about the bull dozer going to bed and he just starts rambling on and making all these pouty faces and rolling his eyes with big huffs and puffs of his breath. He says, bull dozer pushed me! And my room! He keeps repeating it and then he says in a serious voice, my daddy pushed bull dozer. I asked him was it a toy bull dozer (thinking that maybe someone used a toy and pushed him) or was it a real bull dozer? He said a real bull dozer pushed me and my room. He just kept repeating himself. It was seriously one of the cutest conversations I've had with Breckin. He is talking so much and he is showing his imaginative side so much more. I just love that crazy kid!

Work it GURL!

So Savannah is in her third year of dance, I was so excited when she turned three and could start dancing at a studio. This is her first year being on a competition team. I am so excited for her...so maybe I live a little through my daughter. I just want her to have endless possibilities when she gets older. She is really excited and wants to win a purple trophy. Anyways I was able to catch a few pictures at her last class since my niece, Ammelia was there to help with Ella. Some days it would be great to have a nanny just so I am able to take pictures of my kids:) Savannah loves dancing at Devotion Dance Acadamy.

A few of my favorite things....

Savannah is getting so old! I love her so much. She is so helpful with Breckin and Ella, that is when her and Breckin are not fighting:) She still loves to wrestle with her Daddy and loves to shop with me. She loves going on dates without the other kids. She just got into the 100 club at school because she was able to count to 100 by herself. She is doing great with her reading and school work. I just love to listen to her socialize with friends, she is so dramatic!
Breckin has been getting help with his speech and he has improved so much! He is becoming much more social and he still loves car cars but now has a new love of Spider-Man. He said his name for the first time today, I was so proud of him and he now knows about five animals and there sounds. He is such a boy but we wouldn't trade this handsome little guy!
Ella is almost eleven months and she is so busy! She disappears and takes off up the stairs so fast! She loves to get attention since she doesn't get much because the other two crazy kids. She has been such a happy baby and we love her dearly.

Miss Ella Reese

I feel like I have done a horrible job blogging and taking pictures of Ella. We have been so busy with three kids. It seems like every week some one is sick. Ella will be ten months old on January 14th. She is growing so fast, I feel like I miss so many of her first because I am dealing with other kids (whom I love). I guess when you are the third child you are used to not getting all the attention. Probably a month ago she started saying momma and about a week ago started saying Dada. She loves her sister and brother so much, they always make her smile. Breckin calls her sissy, he made that up all on his own. This morning I was folding clothes and he pointed out sissy's pile. I thought it was pretty cute that he recognizes her clothes. Ella has been such an angel and good baby but the wildness is starting to kick in! She no longer will sit still church and she is all over the place at home. I put her in the bath tub for the first time today with out any assistance from me or her baby tub. She absolutely loved it, she was screaming happy screams and splashing all over. We love our little miss.